I feel like a leaf in the cosmic wind, sailing to I do not know where. I no longer do make decisions based on my opinions of what I need or what I should do. Instead, I'm learning to listen to what the shamanic traditions call "power," and what is called "the Hint," and what is referred to in many religions as the "Will of God." I let myself be guided by signs and confirmations from the universe. These come at every level, internal and external. I've given up trying to direct the course of my life; now I let the water carry me. When I'm inadvertently fighting the current, I meet with constant obstruction and find myself struggling. When I stop trying to push the river, whatever is meant to be comes easily, effortlessly. This doesn't mean it's always to my liking, or guaranteed pleasant or painless. Even so, the less I insist on my own way and the more I accept what is given, the lighter my life becomes.
